I am writing this post today and it is not a happy one. I struggled weather to say anything at all. It's a sad post. I am warning you now that this is more for my benefit then for you to read. I am writing this as therapy for me because this is my blog and I can.
My Dad is in the hospital. It's bad. He is in ICU. He had a seizure yesterday at home and mom mom called the ambulance. He has another seizure at the hospital. He doesn't really know where he is or how he got there.
My Dad is an alcoholic. Not the crazy violent alcoholic, more like the get drunk fall down and pass out alcoholic. He doesn't eat. He has list probably 30 lbs over the summer. You can't make a grown man eat. He has back problems. Had surgery 10 years ago and it didn't go well. He can't go back to work and that is when the drinking got real bad. He wasn't always an alcoholic.
They took his blood and said that his salt content is dangerously low. He could die. If he doesn't die, he could become a paraplegic if his salt content rises too fast. They have to be very careful.
I am upset. I am sad. I am very scared. I am angry. I am angry that he did this to himself. We begged him to stop. The doctor says he will never drink again. This could kill him. He may never come home.
I feel bad that I am angry when hes laying in a hospital bed.
That's all I can write for now. I am sorry for the somber post if you read this. Please keep him in your prayers.